samiraisfan
13 May 2016 @ 12:56 am
Delusional mind  
I don't know why, just simply wanted to write here and share a thought there. Will put this under a cut since I don' want to bother anyone ^^

Might you be brave to open this... )
 
 
Current Music: Kehlani - Be Alright
Current Location: nowhere I cannot be
Current Mood: thoughtful
 
 
samiraisfan
26 February 2016 @ 03:50 am
Another dream...?  

Yes, let's call it. )

Have a nice weekend!

 
 
Current Location: on dreamland
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Fergie ft. Will.I.Am. - Quando Quando Quando
 
 
samiraisfan
13 October 2015 @ 01:02 am
2015: Year of the Sheep  
"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!" ... Or that was what I supposed to write already ten months ago. Since in the past years it became a tradition for me to write a post every new year here, this time I delayed it too much. So much that I'm writting it now, on October, almost when this 2015 is about to end.

Just wanted to share that I'm more active, like on previous new year's posts is mentioned, on Twitter and Tumblr but I want to give another use to this LJ blog and since I've started writing again I will post the few blurred stories here and there to have an habit and not get things stuck, dusty and forgotten. The idea is getting them published on Monday's midday, but I will begin to get everything ready by this week.

Also will change again the layout... Or not. Well, I'll give it a try after posting the fanfictions. If the text fits, I won't do anything, but if I feel it doesn't fit very nice I will look for a proper one and change it.


Thank you for still sticking there.
- Aoky yori.
 
 
Current Music: Starlight Kiss - Arashi
Current Mood: happy
Current Location: In front of two laptops' screens
 
 
samiraisfan
24 October 2014 @ 12:14 am
Changes  
Sup! I've just made some changes on this journal.

>First: The layout.
>Second: The profile info.

And, although, I made a second livejournal some years ago, I will delete it and bring the few posts I've there back here, eventually. Because I
currently feel this place somewhere to really share what deep deep deep inside I feel and think. I tend to do this with my tumblog but it seems even if I write there something happy it might end up looking sad (giggle). And I don't know why! Maybe because, probably, at the times I was into a huge depression I used Tumblr to write all those cruel and negative thoughts. And for once when I got into that mood I felt better logging there but I usually find myself more at peace when I look into this journal.

And I won't go to make any post private because I feel pretty stupid doing such. I really don't mind who will read me. I'm writing for myself. I can be doing this on a piece of paper. I even do that, but I also like to save this somewhere else in case I lose all my thoughts written by hand.

Another thing I want to comment here is.. that I'm currently on my last year of degree. Last year? Yes, you read right, last year. And, also I'm getting quite creative that I might use this as a platform to share the stories I have in mind as storage, as I mentioned before. There will be on my native language (Spanish) and/or in English, depending on my mood.

To sum up, I will try to use this more often, just personal. Not related with anything I fangirl of. Although I might share my opinion about anything, currently just by myself.

Thank you.
Aoky.
 
 
Current Location: in front of my laptop's screen
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Spinnin' Records
 
 
samiraisfan
11 May 2014 @ 06:18 pm
Changes  
Mostly changes and decisions in my life.
Seems I just write here whenever I make some important changes, but well... that's why this is what I use this livejournal account: for personal purposes. And to keep watching Arashi but that's all THANKS TO ALL OF YOU WHO SHARE SUCH FILES. THANK YOU!!!

What I came to write is... Don't know if already talked about 'roleplaying' here. But if not, here is the first time. And the last. Because I stopped doing it. It was really funny and entertaining, and something amazing to meet new people... But at some point it became an obligation for me when everyone else tends to use it to escape real life. My escape valve is college right now. It's weird but it is. I have dreamt to be in college years, and now that I am, it is wonderful. I met dozen of people per year and I feel safe there. If I could I would love to have classes from morning to evening, and do every work they give us over there to just come home and relax to enjoy the few hours on my hobbies and such. So I tried to have 'roleplaying' as a hobby too but I ended up taking it personal when that's the wrong thing to do. All 'roleplayers' advice it: "don't make it personal. What happens to your 'muse/character' has nothing to do with the 'roleplayer/typist/mun'." Wrong. I ended up feeling worse and stupid. And lately, empty. As if it doesn't go with me. As if I don't fit in such place. Every time I logged in all I wanted to do was logging off. I got down and depressed and it started to affect my mental health. Although it helped me to come with plot ideas to write and such, I put an end. I still use my tumblog to share all my shitty poor thoughts, sometimes negative sometimes positive mostly... neutral thoughts, but I also like to come here and ramble on everything.


Have a wonderful mother's day and an amazing start of week!

- Aoky yori.
 
 
Current Mood: satisfied
Current Music: Justin Timberlake - Blindness
 
 
samiraisfan
01 January 2014 @ 12:02 am
Happy New Year!!  

明けましておめでとうございます!
¡Feliz Año Nuevo!


I wanted to have this written by yesterday, but what better way to finish the year with one's conclusions about it! So here are mines:
This 2013 has been the year of ups and downs. Totally. I haven't done so many mistakes in my life as I've done this year. I used to regret everything I made. Now, I want to apologize to all those I cause harm or hurt during this year or last years. I'm deeply sorry. But I also want to say I've learnt from all these mistakes. And think twice everytime a situation is given ahead. And always goes to ask advice for the older ones (aka my parents) experienced in life the most. I also used to ask advice but then completely ignore such statements, yet later i was the one using them to advice people around. Now, to the contrary, I'm applying every advice i ask for on me and think about them before take any action. Also another thing I learnt is that there is no need to be persistant on something that have no future on it, that the good memories from that time, and also the bad ones just created from here myself, are what i have to treasure the most. Just every memory created with every person that cross my life. Now and then. And with those that no longer are here, with those that still are here, and with those that will come.


Thank you for everything.
- Aoky.

 
 
Current Music: Arashi - On Sunday
Current Mood: accomplished